anyone have a lighter?

Kate had a much better night than the first one.  She made it until about 12:30 before the pain woke her up.  The nurses have now added another pain medication and something to relax her muscles in her back to the narcotic cocktail she is getting.  The additional medications helped immensely and she went back to sleep and stayed fairly comfortable the rest of the night.

Her fever has not subsided so they are checking her lungs for any signs of early pneumonia.  She had an X-ray about an hour ago and we should have the results of that soon.  They brought it in on a cart and did the X-ray right in her bed.  She had to roll herself onto a hard board then back up onto her side, it made her wince in pain but she did it without complaining.   Hopefully it is nothing and just from laying down and lower oxygen levels. 

I know she needs all this stuff done but I really don't like all these chemicals and radiation going into her body.  It's the polar opposite of how I've protected her since even before she was born.  I've always made a genuine effort to avoid exposing her to cigarette smoke, pesticides and too much processed food.  I'm the mom that made her sit in a car seat until she was almost 9 and the one that will leave a restaurant and drive to a different one if smoke is drifting near my family.  It's against my nature to let them just pour this stuff into her veins but I've learned when she is hurting not much matters at the moment but making it stop.  If a pack of cigarettes would ease her pain I'd stand next to her and light them for her.